: Bluee :O?

: Dark clouds and Rainn :)).
P.S: I like the cold weather xD.

It has been raining for days..
The weather is soo uncertain..
Makes people sick in some way @.@.
Love the cold feeling neeway :D.

Things aren't really going well these days..
Sighs sighs..
It's like the weather x(, stops things to work like how it should..

18 days more until the end of the world? :O.
Whether it's real or not.
Life will still carry on.
Guess we'll just need to move on :).

Moving into a new hostel in this week.
I guess?
Everything will be fine! I believe :D.
Hehe, better environment.
Will be more quiet here..
Can concentrate on stuffs..
No more extra worries..

: I NEED TO FOCUSS!

GAMBATEH for the last few days before 2013 :D.
Time flies..
We needa fly as well LOL.
To chase the footsteps of the tickling time.
Although, we could never reach them..

Good night :)
A short blog post for today.
MUST CONTINUEE this blog from today onwards FOR THE SAKE OF MY BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES :)))!

PLEASE? CONTINUE.. I mean I must continue da bloggg.. -.-.
Blah.

; Casper Loh :).

:'), I will grow stronger.

I was embarrassed in the class during -Measurement ONE-.

I wasn't really happy on that day. Held my tears back and trying to act like nothing had happened.. I actually suffered.. Mentally.

Wasn't really awake at the moment when Teacher called out my name to answer the taking-off questions on the board in front of my classmates. I was shocked and couldn't react on those blurry questions.. She was teaching too fast on that morning :(. I couldn't even remember the timesing column she taught in the previous class....

And finally, I ended up raging Ms. Carlyn up. She said that she is so disappointed,  She said that I did not concentrate in her class. But Ms. Carlyn, I want to tell you that I really concentrated in your class. I don't know why I forgotten how to do the questions but I really really concentrated in your class. Can't you see it? I couldn't do anything on that time but smile in an awkward way.

Although I am facing the whiteboard.. But I can feel that the whole class is looking at my back. I was so embarrassed on that time :(. Nervous but finally completed the questions. I dare not look at any of my classmates when I walked back to my seat. I concentrated (Emo-ed) for 3 hours after the incident.. I don't know what to do.. I don't know what reaction which I should give.. I felt so stupid.. So dumb.. I almost cried but I held my tears back.. What would my classmates think about me?

I am a stupid student.. I can't even answer simple questions.. Simple Mathematical questions... Maybe its because I'm lazy or maybe unlucky. But I really don't like that kind of feeling :(. I was depressed and even thought of changing my course cause I'm not interested in Mathematics... Not even simple calculations.. I want to do things I like.. I want to take courses which involve things that I'm interested in..

Sad but acted like nothing actually happened throughout the day. I can tell no one but you bloggie.. :(. Sighs.. I don't want these things to happen on me anymore..

Think positive! I'm gonna 'suck' every single beautiful happenings to my life and I want a better life! I will change it no matter how.


 Depressed..

Unlucky day ? LOL.

Ahh :D . I'm back bloggie x) ! So.. I'll be updating a post for 2 days ago ( Monday ). I am accepted  to be in TARC college now as a student and 'enjoying' college life. I'm currently living in a hostel sharing with 12 people. 3 roommates and 9 housemates. Many fun and conflicts happened between. Its sometimes fun and somtimes annoying. That's just a kind of weird feeling. Sighs, many things happened in this 2 months after National service and I couldn't update everything.( An important one to update. I bang-ed into a toyota corolla and made my father pay 2k + for the repairing fees. :(. I drove when I  werr sleepy D: DANGEROUS AND LUCKILY No life are taken away. What a expensive and shocking experience x(. )

     Woke up 8.30a.m as usual for class today at 9.00am. I felt like sleeping more :@ !


     After Building Construction, the gang "checked in" to our hotel again :x. Ate 'reunion' breakfast together :P. Cuz we looked like a big family eating reunion 'breakfast' sitting at a round table enjoying food :x.


After the 'reunion breakfast, I planned to write my essay for AELE but too bad Niicky played the movie called ' The superhero movie' some sort of the parody of spiderman and some other super hero movies.


I laughed so hard xD. But I finally finish it off also during a break after building construction tutorial. 


I LOVE ENGLISH <3. Class finally ended at 5pm.


Went home and watched a Thai movie. It's about a girl who was not pretty and she changed a lot and became a pretty girl afterwards because of a senior in her school.
I love it.





After that movie, housemates and I planned to play badminton. It started at 9 but we went there early. We played like crazy. I like the feeling of exercising.. Maybe it's because I haven't exercise for a long time already. I use all of my energy to play and I got so exhausted. 


We decided to go to McDonald for supper but unfortunately, I bang-ed again into a red Toyota Estima.. I drove through a red light and bang-ed in to the car while I reverse luckily nothing serious happened. Everything were settled peacefully. Panic panic panic D:<. I don't one the toyota corolla incident to happen anymore. Why am I always banging in to toyota ._.. Wonder wonder wonder.


     We thought everything would be fine after that but again.. McDonalds at sunrise is closing at 12 although 24 hours is written there. We didn't notice what happen and Chien Ping suggested us to go to Green Lane McDonalds. I complained that that will be very far away but we went there anway. Melvyn drove there xD. I need to recover from my panic. 
     
     And what the hell.. When we reach, we saw a few groups of people leaving McDonalds and we felt something wrong. We parked and went to see whats actually happening. We saw a notice pasted on the front door stating that all of the McDonalds even 24 hours ones will be closed at 12midnight. We were very disappointed.. McDonalds is clearing something I guess.. We come this far and get this kind of shit ._.. We finally ate our supper in a Malay shop selling all kinds of food. Many of us ate Nasi Pattaya and only one of our girl housemate at normal fried rice. The food was okay and the Milo was great.


Enjoyed xD.
We reached home at about 1.30a.m after dropping Zhi Ren back to his hostel. Me and my roommates felt so tired and we even slept on the floor. We bathed and slept.

I enjoyed this wonderful day :).

Hehe, Good night peeps.
I will continue this blog after today!
Tatas.

4th of April , Late at night . FUTURE PLANS .

Hello to my lovely blog LOL .

It's been a long time since I blogged .
Well , I'm lazy and I almost forgotten about my blog .
This is so so so so so bad of me :( .

OKAY , straight to the point .
It's 2012 now and I'm soon starting my college life ..
Which means ..
No more uniforms , no more ( short hairs as in following the school rule's short hair . )
No more ' Ketat ' rules !
But this is not the reason why I don't choose form 6 and go for TARC .
I mean .. Seriously no way right ..
Deciding my future with this ?

Besides , I've already got over PLKN a.k.a National Service .
From 1st of January to 16th of April . A total of 77 days I suppose .
It was quite a fun experience and of course I kept good memories from there in my head :D .
Although I didn't want AT ALL to go there at first when I receive the message that I'm chosen ~.~ .
/ - \ . I managed to get over all this and the most proud thing of me in PLKN is I didn't even get a MC from the doctor before xD .
I enjoyed Flying fox , kembara halangan and the so called ' Tali Tinggi ' and ' Kayak ' .
But I HATE WIRA JAYA , which we need to go into the jungle and actually stay inside .
But we didn't anyway :D . Thanks to the rain and my 'Komandan' :x .

Okay back to the point .
I'm taking a Technology course in TARC about Quantity Surveying .
Well , the adults said that it's a good course ..
I asked opinions from my cousin that took buildings as a course few years back .
I felt it's quite a good course to take ..
Although the things that I'm gonna study will consist of the subject that I hate the most in school .
MATHS .
But it's only using basic maths .. As in Plus , minus , times and divide .
Not modern maths / Additional maths ..
So it okay for me :x .
I've registered and now waiting for the offer .
The guy who 'served' me told me that it'll arrive 1/2 weeks later .
I've thought of taking Mass Communication / Business Administrations ..
But after listening to people's comments , opinions OR advice ..
I decided to take Quantity Surveying .
God helped me too xD .

SO ....
I'm gonna throw away my laziness and start a seriously new and meaningful life .
Set targets and work hard to achieve them .
I believe in myself .
YOU CAN DO IT !
More and more fresh things are coming into my life and my brain ..
The process of turning into an adult ..
I need to face so many problems that sometimes I really felt my head is bursting ..
:( .
I really want time to go back , but I know this is impossible ..
Face the reality ..
I've got a long journey to go ..
Which means ..
I have no choice but to look forward ..

And and and , something which is not that important .
I changed my name for the last and ever .
My aunt taught me how to count my name in an Indian way . ( Forgotten what is it called . )
So .. This would be last and that's all for today , Good Night :) .

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